Monday, February 11, 2008

The Rollercoaster


So far I have had plenty of complaints about pregnancy. I feel like crap, I'm exhausted, everything smells bad, nothing sounds good to eat, I'm bloated, I'm at the point where I just look fat but not pregnant, my clothes don't fit right, I'm sore... blah blah blah (boo hoo, poor me). But up until recently, my moods have stayed pretty stable, which has been great. My usual PMS hormones are way worse than pregnancy ones. Oh wait, I spoke too soon... Enter the hormonal rollercoaster! I thought rollercoasters were supposed to be fun? So yesterday I woke up a little grumpy, which is normal since I'm not a morning person, and I went throughout the day alternating between fine and mildly grumpy. Then around bedtime, I went a little crazy. First I was a little grumpy, then I felt fine, then I was really angry! Then just irritated, then apologetic, then back to angry, then fine, then ANGRY, and all of the sudden I'm sad and crying! What the heck?! Then before you know it, I'm fine again and fast asleep. Luckily, Brady has been a champ for the last 3 months and has jumped at my every need and been very patient and understanding. He listened to me rant, then realized I was crying, and just took me in his arms and let me lay on his chest and cry it out. He admitted that yes, I was crazy, but I had an excuse, so it's ok. What a good man! One of these days I will have to repay him for all his kindness. Does giving birth to his child count? I think that should do the trick :o)

Thursday, February 7, 2008

Habits

So, apparently just by reading my cousin's blog I got tagged to list my habits, strange as they may be. Although I doubt she would hold me accountable if I didn't, I figure I might as well, since I'm searching for ways to kill time at the moment :o) Here goes!

Habit #1- I constantly lock doors without thinking about it. And if I see that a door isn't locked, it drives me insane. Since I grew up with a father that always believes in "safety first", I was conditioned from a young age to lock the front door, back door, garage door, and even windows every time I shut them. Now I do it without thinking about, much to Brady's dismay (who happened to grow up in a household that doesn't even lock their doors when they go on vacation... the horror!). Brady often jokes that he feels like he's living at Fort Knox during lockdown...But hey, its SAFE!

Habit #2- I like to sleep with my covers nicely folded over and straight at night. It's just more comfortable! However, of course my dear husband likes to sleep with his the exact opposite way. It's going to be a lifelong battle unless we get separate comforters.

Habit #3- I eat all the chocolate off of my Reese's peanut butter cups and then pop the delicious little ball of peanut butter in my mouth. There's no wrong way to eat a Reese's!

Habit #4- I would die if I didn't put lotion on every time after I get out of the shower. I don't know if that's a habit as much as it is an addiction to not having dry skin.

Habit #5- Even if I'm home alone, I always close the door to the bathroom when nature calls.

Habit #6- I typically just drop my clothes on the floor or on the end of the bed at the end of the day rather than hang them up. I usually get around to hanging everything up about once a week. Shame on me.

Habit #7- I have a habit of not listening to voice mails, and therefore forgetting to call people back. However, I am really really trying to be better about this, because I know it drives people crazy!

Habit #8- I hit the snooze button at least a good 4 times every morning.

Habit #9- I have a habit of being late, or barely on time. I'm almost never early. (See Habit #8 for the reason why.) Trying to change that one too.

Habit #10- I wait to fill up on gas as long as possible. I usually wait until it's in the red before I finally decide to stop at the gas station. But believe it or not, I've never run out of gas before. Amazing!

Now that you know all my deep dark secrets, everyone who reads this should post theirs too :o)

Saturday, February 2, 2008

The BIG Announcement

So, many of you may have heard already, but for those of you who haven't... BRADY AND I ARE GOING TO BE PARENTS! How crazy is that? Pretty crazy, in my opinion. We found out around Christmas, but I just barely told my boss yesterday, so I didn't want to post it and possibly have it going around work before my boss heard it from me. But, now that she knows, it's out in the open. I'm about 10 1/2 weeks at this point, so I'm due around August 27th. A little over a week ago we had our first doctor's appointment and had our first ultrasound! It was so cool. We could see the little heartbeat and see the tiny baby wiggling around even. It was totally surreal to see that there really was a baby in there. We've gone through a range of emotions since finding out we're going to have a baby. Everything from shock to excitement to being terrified. We are excited though, and we feel very blessed to have this opportunity. To be honest though, after this whole pregnancy thing is over with I think I'll be able to count my blessing more. This process is tough! I've been struggling with morning sickness for weeks now, only it's actually "all day sickness" and isn't just confined to the mornings. And I had no idea that pregnancy made you so dang tired! I've been just exhausted. Once I get home from work I'm completely useless and just crash on the couch. Brady has been an angel. He does everything around the house and tries to make sure I'm comfortable and happy all the time. Smells really bother me, so I can't really do much with Gertie either, because that dog smell is now over-powering and awful. I really don't know what I'd do without such a supportive husband. Hopefully since I'm nearing the end of my first trimester this sickness will go away within the next couple of weeks. I'm already starting to get a little bit of energy back, which is good. So far though, everything is healthy and normal, and I'm very grateful for that.

We'll keep everyone updated on the progress in the coming months. I promised myself that when I got pregnant someday I wouldn't become one of those annoying women who acted as though they were the first woman on the earth to ever have a baby, so I'll try to not overwhelm this blog with pregnancy stuff!

In my last post I talked about all of the changes we've had and how we've been longing for things to feel "normal" again. The stress of knowing we're having a baby has really heightened that, but I think we're starting to feel "normal" again. I was really nervous to tell my boss about it, because I'm afraid that people at work are going to look at me differently, maybe thinking I wasn't focused anymore or that I couldn't perform my new job the way I should. Luckily, my boss was awesome about it and it's such a relief to not have to stress about what she's going to say. She's a mother herself, so I should've figured she'd be understanding.

We'll find out in a couple of months whether we're having a boy or a girl. Brady, of course, is hoping for a little boy that he can watch and play sports with. I, of course, am hoping for a little girl. Since I have all sisters, I wouldn't have a clue of what to do with a boy! Either way, Brady is going to make an incredible dad... I just hope I can figure out this whole parenting thing without making too many mistakes!